A New Beginning

Sometimes we never get what we want

And things just never go as planned

We always end up with the worst of worst

Yet still we look for that helping hand

Being hurt and used seemed like the norm

Because we didn’t know any different

We longed to be cuddled, to be warm

We longed and never got that loving care

Everywhere we tuned there was lies and deceit

It hurt us in more ways than can be explained

Yet we always found another lying cheat

Because we didn’t know any different

When all hope had started to fade

And I was down on my lowest of low

I met you, this amazing man

And I found that my love again could grow

Baby you treat me like a princess

You kindle my heart inside

My love for you will never grow less

But instead will deepen with all the passing days

It doesn’t matter what happens between us

Because I will always and forever know

That you are my perfect man

No matter where you go

I Love You.

Currently Listening As Daylight Dies By Killswitch Engage My Curse see related

Lingering (outta my head)

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Lingering

Have you realized what you’ve done??

I’m fed up of crying over you!

My tears cannot be abstained

They tumble down like rushing waterfalls

Like the blood that runs from open wounds

This constant exasperation that I dread

And these overpowering thoughts

I gotta get you outta my head

Because this pain is lingering

My pain is lingering

I endeavor to find a means

A means to end the anguish

And this darkened dismay that you left me in

So stab my heart and hope to die

I must mend this tragedy

From all the times I’ve been mislead

And left in the wake of your mistakes

I gotta get you outta my head

This pain is lingering

My pain, it’s lingering

Broken hearts don’t mend themselves

And dreadful memories do not wane

I know what I must to do

I need to get rid of you

To wash away my agonies

I need to get rid of you

And the lies that were said

I cannot take it any longer

I gotta get you outta my head

This pain is lingering

My pain, it’s lingering

I’m choking on memories of you

Get out. Get out. Get out.

get outta my head

This pain is lingering

My pain, it’s lingering

Get out. Get out. Get out

Get out of my head

My pain is lingering

It’s lingering!

Currently Listening Summer of Darkness By Demon Hunter see related

Despite everything

Consumed by darkness

Consumed by hate

I am being consumed by everything

That I have been through

I’ve fallen down so far away

And in the dark I want to stay

But with a gallant hand you picked me up

And serenaded my thoughts with alluring words

You convinced me that I was more than nothing

And you tell me that I’m beautiful

You put me on this pedestal

And treat me like I’m something more

I long for your grasp

And the way you make me feel inside

With every gentle touch

And the way that you embrace me

You bring my soul to life

Stop telling me that I deserve more

And all you are is a piece of nothing

Don’t tell me that you aren’t worth it

Because I think you are

Don’t tell me how to feel

Don’t tell me where to go

I don’t want my thoughts of you to dissipate

I just want to be with you

Because you mean just as much to me as I mean to you

Just lay here with me forever

And never let me go

I can’t stand to be with out you

Despite everything that I’ve been through

I want you to know this now

That you aren’t an average Joe

Just because you say that you f’ed up

Doesn’t mean that you’re worth nothing

So hold me tight

And don’t let go

I can’t stand to be with out you

Despite everything that I have gone through

My Own Secret

I can feel my heart racing

Every time I see your face

Cuz you’re the only thing that matters

That matters in this place

And you don’t know I love you

Cuz this is my own secret, my own secret

And I stay up and think of you

And those beautiful blue eyes

When I go to sleep darling,

you don't leave my mind

I’d dream of you forever

But I can’t freeze time

I can’t freeze time

And you don’t know I love you

Cuz this is my own secret, my own secret

Every time I talk to you

You kidnap my mind

I’m overwhelmed with thoughts of you

But the words I can’t find

And you don’t know I love you

Cuz this is my own secret, my own secret

And I stay up and think of you

And those beautiful blue eyes

When I go to sleep darling,

you don't leave my mind

I’d dream of you forever

But I can’t freeze time

I can’t freeze time

And you don’t know I love you

Cuz this is my own secret, my own secret

I want to tell you how I feel

But I just don’t know how

So I whisper underneath my breath

I love you… I love you

Currently Listening Five Score & Seven Years Ago By Relient K Must Have Done Something Right see related

I went and saw Relient K for the "first" time in concert. They were amazing. In my opinion, they are just as good in concert as they are on their CD's. And yet again I was not disastisfied with their new CD; Five Score and Seven Years Ago. I am always surprised how they can manage to keep me listening to the whole cd through. Anyway, the whole CD is phenomenal. Along with the longest titled song, Crayons Can Melt on Us For All I Care (lol), which also happens to be a 10 second song that wastes 10 seconds of your life; they have the best closing song I have heard and their longest yet (11 minutes) ^_^                                                                        so, here it is:

Deathbed: by Relient K

i can smell the death on the sheets
covering me
i can't believe this is the end

but this is my deathbed
i lie here alone
if i close my eyes tonight
i know i'll be home

the year was nineteen forty one
i was eight years old and
far far too young
to know that the stories
of battles and glory
was a tale a kind mother
made up for her son
you see
dad was a traveling preacher
teaching the words of the teacher
my mother left mourning
went off to the war
and died there with honor
somewhere on a beach there
but he left once to never return
which taught me that i should unlearn
whatever i thought a father should be
i abandoned that thought
like he abandoned me

by forty seven i was fourteen
i'd acquired a taste for liquor and nicotine
i smoked until i threw up
yet i still lit 'em up for thirty more years
like a machine

so right there you have it
that one filthy habit
is what got me where i am today

i can smell the death on the sheets
covering me
i can't believe this is the end
i can hear those sad memories
still haunting me
so many things
i'd do again

but this is my deathbed
i lie here alone
if i close my eyes tonight
i know i'll be home

i got married on my twenty first
eight months before my wife would give birth
it's easier to be sure you love someone
when her father inquires with the barrel of a gun
the union was far from harmonious
no two people could have been more alone than us
the years would go by and she'd love someone else
and i realized i hadn't been loved yet myself

and there's your typical spiel
yeah if life was a highway
i was drunk at the wheel
i was seeing the loose ends
all fall apart
yeah i swear i was destined to fail
and fail from the start

i bowled about six times a week

the bottle of beam kept the memories from me
the marriage had taken a seven-ten split
along with my pride the ex-wife took the kids

i can smell the death on the sheets
covering me
i can't believe this is the end
i can hear those sad memories
still haunting me
so many things
i'd do again

but this is my deathbed
i lie here alone
if i close my eyes tonight
i know i'll be home

i was so scared of jesus
but he sought me out
like the cancer in my lungs
that's killing me now
and i've given up hope
on the days i have left
but i cling to the hope
of my life in the next
then jesus showed up
said "before we go"
"i thought that we might reminisce"
"see one night in your life"
"when you turned out the light"
"you asked for and prayed for my forgiveness"

you cried wolf
the tears they soaked your fur
the blood dripped from your fangs
you said, "what have i done?"
you loved that lamb
with every sinful bone
and there you wept alone
your heart was so contrite

you said, "jesus, please forgive me of my crimes
sanctify this withered heart of mine
stay with me until my life is through
and on that day please take me home with you"

i can smell the death on the sheets
covering me
i can't believe this is the end
i can hear you whisper to me,
"it's time to leave
you'll never be lonely again"

but this was my deathbed
i died there alone
when i closed my eyes tonight
you carried me home

(jon foreman of switchfoot sings, as the voice of jesus:)
i am the way
follow me
and take my hand
and i am the truth
embrace me and you'll understand
and i am the light
and for me you'll live again
for i am love
i am love
i, i am love

and for anyone bored enough to take the time to read the whole lyrics through, go listen to it! Peace and love.

jessie